i'm itsdoku (he/him). welcome to the garden.
this should be the general center for everything me-related.
feel free to look around. perhaps you will find something interesting.
i'm itsdoku (he/him, 11/8/2006) - an ordinary boy who loves to do whatever.
fillipino, born in california and intend to stay for the rest of the time i have left.
i am an ex-game developer who made games on roblox (as of now, still am) but i do intend to move past that era of myself and look into different ways of art, such as music and literature.
diagnosed with autism - i fascinate myself with small, insignificant things.
|history:// the beginning
i was never really able to access the internet until pre-pre-teen years, but ever since i was a kid i always wanted to do something substantial - something that would leave an impact on the world. okay maybe that's too much, i just dreamt of being a popular guy one day. before computers, i was given a nintendo dsi which was my primary way of playing games in those years. my selection was limited, but it was enough to keep me interested; new super mario bros, sonic rush and colors, nintendogs, and a lot of other games that have unfortunately gotten lost in my childhood house. one notable thing however, was flipnote studio. although at the time my parents didn't bother to buy me an internet subscription for the dsi, i was (somehow) able to access and download a bunch of videos from hatena (you know the one that goes "i can walk on water i can fly"?) those kinds of videos inspired me to try and create my own stuff, so i began drawing and creating dumb stuff to entertain me.
fast forward a few years, i get my first introductions to the internet; a bootleg tablet (that wasn't even things like apple or t-mobile, it was something like "nook" or some shit). around the golden age of youtube (i think roughly mid or late stage) i found a bunch of stuff. wait... you're telling me you can be anything you want? wow...! i think i'm gonna be sonic... that king guys holding a dinner blaster! so cool! huh, garry's mod? woah, ponies running from fast meme images and... shrek!? so scary!! wait what's this game, it's made of blocks! minecraft? this is a really cool map, it's got sonic and friends!! and so on... (and then like i developed a weird sense of humor)
i must confess, i've never really had a computer until like the half-way point before becoming a teenager. i went through many non-computer devices, like a nintendo dsi, bootleg tablet, 3ds, tablet 2, xbox 360... then i got my first computer, which was a laptop that i immediately used to play and make free model infested games on roblox. later on the screen got shot out by my brother while we were playing with his bb guns. happy accidents... but it's fine though i went through a bunch of windows versions / os's over the years - namely vista, 8, 7, 10 and so on.
|history:// musical awakening
one day, i think my sister had a wedding party with her old boyfriend. it was a pretty big party, rented a whole place (which was really big and wasn't that much of a church, more of a stage). a bunch of things happened, and i think at the prime of my youth, my dad was a full-on dj. i was inspired by what he was doing... everyone was listening and dancing to the loud music with those bright lights, people enjoyed this? and i was right there, seeing my dad at work making the people party out! it was a sight to behold, and something i reminisce a lot about...
|history:// discoveries, discoveries
i've been introduced to a large amount of music genres during my childhood and pre-teen years. things like remixes (especially ytps) have taught me a lot about music and what people liked back in the day, and sometimes i wish i was as aware as i am now at that time. i was introduced to a bunch of music, most notably "kamex," "the living tombstone," "dm dokuro," "lapfox / halley labs," etc... some of which were actually through roblox games and scripts. during that time, i was still fascinated at the idea of becoming a dj like my dad - so i asked him and he gave me this program that allowed you to make mixes and burn them into cds. i mashed my favorite songs together through downloading them off a totally-not-suspcious free youtube downloader, and basically made whatever.
later on - i think kamex was the one to introduce me to fl studio, since he had a dedicated tutorial on how to make music and it was his program of choice for the video. i downloaded the free version and made stuff (for some roblox roleplay events i was doing at that time) using bits and pieces of flps along with soundfonts i found on the internet (most of which are undertale related). the skill and knowledge of fl studio just came naturally as i got more and more familiar with how the program works. funnily enough, a few years later i was the same guy to help work on the dustswap dusttrust soundtrack and reboot!revenge the unseen ending soundtrack (2018-ish).
during my time on the internet, i've discovered a lot of things about myself. furry creatures seem interesting, could i possibly identify as one? ...seems that doesn't work, how about create a bunch of 'em and decide later? this "tomoko" girl is pretty cute - did i figure out my type? what kind of personality am i able to hold up as a person? - very stoic, silent type? a scene/y2k boy? i don't think my dad would allow me to... energetic? no, that doesn't suit me... do i want to have a family in the future? what kind of job am i going to get...?
roughly 10-11 years have passed in this entire page - it is now 2024, and i still haven't figured everything out.
|history:// the path forward
i believe that what i have set up thus far will pave a new pathway for me, which will allow me to move on from my past struggles and celebrate the good that came with it. my inspirations, dm dokuro, halley labs, vylet pony... many childhood artists are still ones that i listen to this very day. i simply just want to stop making "undertale sans remix number 500" and create something new in my discography.
i was diagnosed with autism in my early years, crippling my socialization skills immensely. the internet has been my only way of accommodating for this. but as of 2024, i've been in taekwondo as a physical sport / activity (i haven't been exercising much up until that point). the people there including my mentors are genuinely wonderful people and just trying to have fun with what they're doing.
and as i realized that (with additional help from my aforementioned artists), the rough idea of my "purpose" manifests; do anything and have fun with it. if you want to force something, it won't be as good as it would if you simply did what you love to do... which is why i'm here now, i simply do what i want to do. i want to be myself, and i'll take as much time as i need.
welcome to the archive. this should be the general library of all things old and new made accessible in the most convenient way possible. for the most part, old files put into the archive will not be updated.
the residents of the rosefield spire, coequally known as "aliases." inspired by halley labs, i use these alises to assign rules and generally have more fun with the process of making music - being able to introduce entirely new identities along with their own themes and personalities into my work. (i have to clarify that there is no lore, only nondescript ideas and concepts that i chose to involve in my work.)
for general information such as rules about an alias, hover over the information marks on each.
alias: NaomiDoez
name: Naomi
species: deer of some kind
id: he/him
form: fakebit
where: northern zira region
food: fish & chips
a young developer who prior to being in the rosefield spire continuously found himself in dark mental places due to project stress. he's known ezekiel for as long as his time in the rosefield spire, with the two being in a very secretive / closed relationship.
alias: Ezekiel II
name: Ezekiel
species: goat of some kind
id: he/him
form: scene-ish rave / dancefloor party music
where: lightspeed city district (former) - northern zira region (present)
food: "anything works"
an underground dj who insisted on working by himself due to his paranoia. although ever since he met naomi, the two have admired each others composing styles. ezekiel insists that naomi is a "good friend," although there is a small amount of evidence that suggests otherwise.
alias: ItsDoku
name: Miko
species: artificial human
id: he/him(?)
form: "anything these guys can't do"
where: rosefield spire, miko's headspace
food: lumpia & rice
the one who started this mess. he spends most of eternity living in his own headspace - spending his time in a silent, dreamy stasis for weeks on end. only (briefly) existing in the real world whenever fate wills it.
alias: InDoctrinae
name: Cero
species: human(?)
id: he/him(?)
form: dissolution of one self
where:
food:
sending signals from the voided outskirts, picked up by our receivers at the rosefield spire and put in research by our scientists. we cannot tell whether these are calls for help, or if he is simply doing this to "make" something like the rest of us. many of cero's in-text transmissions suggest that he is miko's father / creator, though we are unable to give miko the news.
alias: veilolance
name: Sebastian
species: raccoon of some kind
id: he/him
form: "authentic" computer music
where: rosefield spire, apartment A01
food: 100% real filipino asian dishes
miko may have been the one to kickstart the whole rosefield operation, but soon his repeated absence proved to be detrimental for its stability. sebastian was put in charge to run the whole operation. many concerns were brought up regarding sebastian's health, always seeming to responding with "convincing" reassurance.
alias: Rosefield Sciences Associates, ItsDoku & additional aliases
name: Miko, Naomi, etc...
species: N/A
id: N/A
form: any soundtrack organized in chronological order
where: rosefield spire, general campus
food: N/A
a very open-ended group (allowing any outsider contribution) that creates the soundtracks (source material-rooted albums) you see in most of rosefield's digital releases.
alias: epitaph
name:
species:
id:
form: the end
where:
food:
everyone has their own image and perception of death / the end. it can be a moon - the end of days, the grim reaper - the harvester of souls, or maybe an eternal darkness - that which awaits and consumes your reality after death. "epitaph" is what we can only make out to be a ceaseless mirror to an inevitability; the reality of mortality. "nothing truly lasts forever, memento mori - remember death."
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